Such a bitter statement. . . SO FULL OF REGRETS.. but's that's the way it is. *writing this entry is one way for me to let go of all the complicated mixture of feelings that i have inside of me* one told me once, that what i would go into is like riding a roller coaster. i thought that i am almost finished - yeah, almost. infact, i already removed my seatbelt - unfortunately, the cart began to move again - slowly at first, then faster and faster until i was not really able to refasten my safety gear and unfortunately was caught unarmed. Sometimes we make mistakes, mistakes that hopefully, we'll learn from. But what if that one mistake that you made would lead you to a situation where you would let go of something you already learned to love doing. or maybe i was just exaggerating or much better, i hope i am just dreaming, that one day, when i wake up, i would not feel so stupid, as what i do feel right now. (then i would not feel so ashamed of myself and hope everytim...