i suddenly had one of the worst crying times that i ever had in my entire twenty one years of existence. i cried for like fifteen minutes without stopping. yes i have cried longer. but what made my most recent crying situation the worst is because i barely know the reason why i was crying which makes me cry even more. i know for a fact that it was not because i am still heartbroken. i think so. well at least i was not thinking of him when i was crying. and now i do hope that it is because of him. even though, i'd rather not go back to the pathetic state that i was in when i spent endless nights and days crying about him, at least, if i cry because i miss him, i want to be with him or because i love him so much and assuming that he does not care anymore, i would have a solid reason why i need and want to cry, but that was not the case some minutes ago. i think i cried because i was so bored. is that even a logical explanation for crying? i feel so bored and sad with my life...