AnneC.

It's sad how people have the tendency to always think about their own selves, their own schedules, the things they have to accomplish; when there are those who have to do more, who have a lot more on their hands and yet you can never hear anything from them. These times, make me think how selfish people can be; how they would always put first their own - for survival? Maybe. I dont know. It's just really sad to be putting this into words.. It is made more real. but hey, it is. And i want this to be a reminder.. More for myself than for others.. That before we complain.. let us stop and think about those who have more to do but opted to give us time, who made it a point that everything would be easier for us, who has made greater sacrifices for our own good. There are those who would be in the extreme and would even say that it is other people's choice on why they have to give more. (yes unfortunately, people as such exist). But that is exactly the point. There are tho...

No. This is not about my own love story. My previous entry was about reading. and two days ago, i finished a book in two days which almost destroyed my life, since I was so detached to reality that i forgot my priorities, my duties and responsibilities :p my reasoning: i had to finish everything, because then is the only time that i can function normally. although after reading the book, i had a few more days that i get the images, parts or words of the story playing in my head and remembering the plot :p thinking about what could have been done to have a better ending (and by better i meant a happy one). anyway, im talking about the book by Jodi Picoult - The Pact. It is a story about two childhood friends turned lovers who had a suicide pact. It may sound simple, but it's not. Explaining the whole plot in my own words would not give justice to the book, that i encourage you to read it if you want something heavy, complex and mind boggling :p really distracting but the love is...

Reading fascinates me. a lot. it's like a brand new world, that i can immerse myself into. Whenever i find myself reading a story, be it a novel or a short one, i can't help myself but be detached from the real world and live in an alternate universe where the characters are new people in my life, new friends who i celebrate with when they are happy and i cry with when they are hurt or sad, whatever the plot permits. I feel blessed for being given the gift to appreciate books, to appreciate the act of reading itself. Although there could really be times when reading fiction distracts me from my responsibilities in life, I feel fulfilled when i get to finish a book as soon as possible after starting it. :p I may not always be happy, and I may actually be even disturbed about the story, but at least i was given a break from my can-be-mundane life :p thus i encourage everyone to read. try different worlds and continue learning :)

That is how Filipinos call people who start something and not finish it, or start something but does not maintain doing it. And it is what I might call myself as well, if i had not find the time and the urge to write again. Although, i think i might already call myself one since no matter what excuse i give, like having no time due to the hectic academic schedule, i still think i could have written a few words about the learnings i get each day. i do think everyday that i should write, but sometimes, i cant think of anything to write. writer's block? maybe. although the only logical reason on why i can't write due to a writer's block is because i cant think of a valuable life lesson to share, which is.. actually sad. anyway, no matter what the reason or excuse for my absence in this blog, is for me not valid. And with that comes the consequence of not being able to celebrate my blog's first month </3 here's to more months and to not being ningas kugon. :p t...

Yesterday, the priest made a very good sermon. It was about the law of gifts. I heard this a few times already and i quite believe it as well. with the operative word quite. but i guess with the way the priest delivered it, i was really made to believe that it exists like the physical laws governing us and that law must be used as a way of life. The law of gifts says that the more you give, the more you will receive; that what you give will be given back to you a hundred fold; and that the gifts given to us by Him should be shared because it is meant to be shared because that's the natural way of things. He compared it with the law of gravity where everything that comes up must come down. he mentioned a few more examples which really touched me a lot - learn to forgive and you will be forgiven; love and more will love you back. i hope i really get to live by such principle in life, such lesson is indeed, a blessing :)

Last Saturday, our family bonding movie was in time. Again, i sort of judged the movie because i thought it was boring and all that. And again, i was wrong. It was an awesome movie with great script and story line. It shows a life where people stop aging at 25 and where you have an additional year to live. It's a world where the currency is time and like the harsh reality we face today, the rich only gets richer and the poor are left to die. The movie bluntly shows the hierarchy and how forcefully people try to balance the world where there should be the rich ones and the poor ones. Apart from the creative way of putting such issue into screen, the movie made you think how important time really is. It may not be the currency we use in this world, but i say it's more important than money. For how can we use the money that we have if we run out of time? So let's use our time wisely. (which is weird to come from me who have been procrastinating since saturday for tomorro...

I seldom believe in gut feel or instinct. I barely trust mine since i barely feel i have one as well :p and the rare times i hear my instinct talk and i trust it, im always up for such a life treat :) For instance, last saturday, i was deciding whether to ride the train or the trike to the mall. I decided to take the train, even though it would be full of people and much of a hassle. i decided to take the train because i was thinking of my safety since i would have a longer walk via trike. And viola! upon riding the train, i saw my bestfriend for years, who i was not able to see for a very long time already :) It's the same with thinking that everything happens for a reason. Not forcing myself to ride the first train, thinking that the next train would have fewer people when it actually meant, seeing someone very dear to me. Ah. The happiness :)

'For what is a man who gains the world, but loses himself in the process.' I heard this the other night from the PBB episode and it touched me a lot :) for this is how i saw myself before quitting into something which i so desired. Of the many things in life, i value most my beliefs and principles; i wouldnt want to lose them for they define who i am. and a lot of times, we have to do things which masks itself as something good for you - well sometimes they are. But there are those times which require you to change and be entirely a different person for that greater good. Entirely changing to conform, or getting to the top by means which does not coincide with personal beliefs are things i dont want and believe yet. And it just feels great to hear a quote about it, and to know that there are people apart from me who actually believes and lives by such principle :) it further reinforces my belief that i made the right decision :)

there's a different feel when we let ourselves be immersed in good vibes:) thus we must always let ourselves look into the positive, brighter side of things. here's to more positivity!:)

i say, it's human nature to be selfish. i've had my fair share of selfishness when i believe that it should be my problems first, it should be what i want first before anything. a lot of times, people tend to forget that the rest of the world has far greater problems - you may be worrying on what to eat when there are those who worry when they can eat and if their money is enough to buy them food. those kind of stuff. a very respected mentor once told a group of students a very valuable lesson which could be really helpful to all hopeful md to be -- to get over yourself. because it's not always about you. a lot of times it's about the greater good. always for the good of the many. i thought that by this time, i have learned this. unfortunately, not. i still have a long way to go to overcome the selfishness. and i pray that ill be able to do so cause like a lot of valuable life lessons, they are always for the better.

Life is a long journey. it should never be rushed but you should not be too lax either. Today i gave one good advice to a special friend - to take one step at a time but to not forget to look forward into the future. This has been a helpful advice to me a number of times already; made big decisions which so far i have not regret. Cause yes it's about the present but it wouldnt hurt to look into one's long term goals and see if how what you are doing now can affect what you want to be. Second sem, i shall face you one day at a time.

Life is full of them. Sometimes these are the nice im excited for these surprise kind of thing but sometimes they are the im surprised and i dont like it type. No matter which between the two, it's foolproof that we are to be surprised and shocked at the most inappropriate even unacceptable time. I believe that im a surprise buster, cause i expect. A lot. But even someone like me can be surprised. just like tonight. And Unfortunately, it's not the happy kind. It's the kind of surprise you get when you are trying to move on from something, trying to forget and that thing suddenly gets attached to something dear and close to you. That you are two steps back from the one move forward you fought so hard for. On a brighter side of things, maybe it's a sign. Or a challenge. Or what not. That id rather not dwell too much on, cause id be out of the surprise topic already. No matter what, all i can say is - Life. You never fail to amaze me.

For every rule there's an exception, i say i believe in that :) and i would like this blog entry to be an exception from my 'life lessons' entries. :p I miss blogging like the normal blogger who i was and i still am. I miss the unthemed blogs that i have where i can write about what happened to my day. I miss expressing myself without any hesitation.. but i do believe that this is a more mature thing to do :p cause in blogging for 5 years, i have really polluted the internet with so much of myself. See links at side bar :p that i have to be more 'unpersonal' and express my views without having to reveal too much of my life if i want to keep a little more privacy. and sometimes it's actually already boring to read about one's life and one's rants. So yes, i stick to being the new blogger me who instead of writing about what happened, would write about the learnings i gained; Instead of endlessly ranting on not getting the things i desire is to look...

We are always blessed :) i know for one that God is always blessing me with the things i need and sometimes even more, and with all these i am more than grateful :) Every birthday is a turning point in one's life for us or atleast for me.. It's a time to realize how much time i already have been spending here on earth; a tine to reflect on the kind of life that i have lived and the decisions i have made. And so far, i am happy. Very happy :) For i know that the 23 years i have been living is well spent with people who have been showering me with so much love.. and i shall continue living life well, sharing love, learning and counting and being thankful for all my blessings :)

Everyday we grow old, and hopefully with age comes maturity and growing up ;) Ill be celebrating my 23rd birthday in a few minutes :) happy birthday to me :)

I said it once and ill say it again.. Money, the desire for more is the root of all evil. Fighting over it is a foolish thing to do. And it's sad that a lot of people do not understand this. Money or other material things cant be brought to the grave. I just hope that people realize this before things are too late.

And it flies fast. This time next week, i shall be 'studying/cramming' for an exam. It flies fast that three days from now, ill be turning 23 and that 3 years more and i shall be a doctor already :)