AnneC.

I have been writing this 3 part entry on the first day post the board exams. True enough, you wake up and you think, what now? We have about three days until the board exam results are out. Three long days of not having to think of any responsibility. I am writing this now because I don’t think I would have all this time to write and process and reflect on everything that has happened once the results are out. (Claiming it! Staying positive! Law of attraction! -- and it happened!) Reflecting on all the emotions was fun. I was getting a little teary while I was writing the preparation days. And as of this moment, it’s the Let go and Let God feeling standing out. Yesterday (the day that we were expecting the results of the exams to be released) I was definitely trying my best to keep calm and to find my inner peace. of course to no avail. Thanks to my very supportive boyfriend who planned a whole day out so i would not be staring at my phone and cringe with every incoming text. ...

The night before the first day of the board exam was the hardest. I thought I had the skill to sleep no matter what the circumstance is. Unfortunately, I was up almost all night tossing and turning to no avail.  In the beginning of my first entry I asked, how do you compress 100 days, 4 exams and 3 waiting days in a single entry? I said I cant. And so I ask again, how do we compress 5 years of medical education and training into 12 exams? I don't think we also can.  The exam was difficult. Yes, there were questions that you can answer. But there were questions which can make you go, “ANO DAW?” “UGH.”  There were mentally exhausting questions, you’d rather just choose C. Of course there were the expected typographical errors, repeating questions (which are UNFORTUNATELY the questions you don’t know the answer to. There were a number of times I just wrote down a big WHY beside the repeated question out of frustration. Haha.). It was a sad and frustrating exam. ...

How do you put 100 days of preparation, 4 days of examination and 3 days of waiting in one blog entry? You can’t. Haha. So I’m making this a 3 part entry. That very long hiatus from writing and this heart full of emotions had led me craving to write my heart out. So indulge me. I don’t think I would be able to encapsulate all the emotions in that one of a kind journey which led me to where I am today. But I would still try because having that experience is something that I would love to look back to (definitely not do again) but something that I would like to read about when I feel like strolling down my memory lane. It started the day after the review center (Topnotch medical board prep) orientation where we were welcomed with a wake-up call, the board examination is about three months away - 106 days to be exact. Will it be enough? Probably. And then came the diagnostic exams where in there was really the doubt of whether it will be enough.  Parang hindi . But it was...