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Post Valentine's Entry:)

My most recent entries were so emo. that i decided to write something light and happy for valentine's day. besides, im really happy for quite a time now, that being too emotional is a no-no:)))

most of my readers may not know (unless you are following me on twitter or plurk or fb, and i may have posted on one of these sites) that i was happy, in fact very happy on the first day of the month:) that day may actually made me more confused than i already am, but nevertheless, the events that day made me genuinely happy:)

this past few days were also the happiest. after an emo thursday night at the UP FAIR because my favorite band, silent sanctuary has a <sarcasm> good set of songs for that night </sarcasm>. Friday was a better day. and up to now, i've been smiling. 

maybe one of the reasons why I was sad for a quite a time, aside from the fact that I'm such a nega, bitter and emo person is for me to be able to enjoy this kind of happiness again:))) no, im not in a committed relationship of any sort. but yes, i am happy because of the thing that causes emo people like me to be cheesy. lol. *dreamy sigh*

sometimes, if you are in a situation where you need to decide what to do or where to go and you dont know how to decide for yourself. all you need to do is to let fate do the decision making. i believe that people should fight for what they think is right and for what they want but i am also a believer of destiny or fate or whatever you call the unknown and invisible force that can connect the people who are meant to be. 

i've done everything i know, to move on, to let go, but i always go back to where i started. i never make any outstanding progress. and now i have resigned myself to wait. wait for life to take its own course. i may really be scared for what may happen in the future, for the different plans and the difference in dreams. but i have great faith in what i feel. despite everything that happened, despite everything that people say, i dont really know why or how i can still have great faith in us. (eeeek. ancheesy nung last sentence. scrap scrap. haha.)

but i guess, love is really one complex feeling that no one will ever ever understand or even put into words. 

"hay naku..pag-ibig nga naman minsa'y napakagulo." (Silent Sanctuary, Mistaken for Granted)

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we may not know what will happen tomorrow, next week, next month or the next years. but now is more important :) and i am happy to wait with you, today:)
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okay. kung hindi emo, cheesy naman. chugsh. haha. 

P.S. please Lord, let this positive feeling stay for a loooongg tiiimeeee. masaya e :)))
P.S.2 a cheesy entry results from writing while listening sa ss. lol. sige pa anne, make excuses. hahaha. 

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