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on reading between black and white.

The eyes cannot see what the mind doesn't know.

Our two week rotation on Radiology just finished. And it was a lot of learning experience for me. You see, I was actually considering being a Radiologist, since we do not have a radiologist in our province. And having a very vague future for myself ahead makes Radiology a very nice field.

After this rotation, I've seen the perks of being on the said specialty, but I also noted how it would be very difficult. It was a benign rotation and probably a benign life ahead as well, but i am not yet sure if that is what I want to do for the rest of my life. You see, i am still in the phase of wanting to become the kind of doctor who can help people, who can get the satisfaction of being a doctor by being able to talk to them and assure them that I will try my best to help them be well.

When my mom asked me what I find really interesting and what I want, all I can say was, 'Whatever rotation I am in is my interest.' which is actually partially true. Although I cant see myself in most of the subspecialties as early as now. Add to it the fact that those which requires spatial skills and depth perception have been removed from the list (thankfully) or the list of possibilities would be endless.

If only choosing a specialty is as easy as differentiating black from white. Unfortunately, as what radiology taught us, there is a big spectrum between the black and the grays and the whites. And that what makes things and deciding for the future harder. Unless we commit ourselves to that one impression with a leap of faith, then we can never be certain for sure.

im far from taking that leap and i have no 'impression' on mind at the moment. All I know is I want to be a doctor and I want to be a good one. and I guess being a third year medical student, that is enough.



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