I realized since last year that my favorite time during duty is early morning at around 2 to 4 am. Probably it's because as a first year medical resident on duty a year ago, those wee hours in the morning are the hours when I get to finish my backlogs, when I get to do the final chart rounds prior to endorsement, when I can start to calm my nerves and let out a big sigh of relief for the final duty hours (which are hopefully and mostly benign), when we are able to snag a few nap hours if we are lucky prior to starting the from duty day.
Earlier this morning, as I was about to do my chart rounds prior to endorsement, I realized that one thing I greatly appreciate during these hours is the silence. For in a world where everything has been said, where everyone wants to be heard - we are only given a few moments of quiet time to enjoy.
It's ironic how much I enjoy silence and become a physician who deals with people on an everyday basis. Some of my colleagues make funny comments about days when I can really be "anti-social" and most of those who know me have an idea of how I get really quiet whenever I am pissed or whenever I am faced with a very frustrating situation. Some find the silent treatment from me frustrating as well, but I think I learned from before that confronting people when you are mad would only result to words that are not meant to be said - oftentimes making things worse. While at other times there are just no words left to say because it's just really the situation more than the people involved.
There is nothing wrong with stopping to talk or even stopping to listen - a time to give yourself space from all the noise around and just really appreciate the beauty in silence. For when the hallways are empty and the world seem still, there is definitely a certain kind of peace.
Earlier this morning, as I was about to do my chart rounds prior to endorsement, I realized that one thing I greatly appreciate during these hours is the silence. For in a world where everything has been said, where everyone wants to be heard - we are only given a few moments of quiet time to enjoy.
It's ironic how much I enjoy silence and become a physician who deals with people on an everyday basis. Some of my colleagues make funny comments about days when I can really be "anti-social" and most of those who know me have an idea of how I get really quiet whenever I am pissed or whenever I am faced with a very frustrating situation. Some find the silent treatment from me frustrating as well, but I think I learned from before that confronting people when you are mad would only result to words that are not meant to be said - oftentimes making things worse. While at other times there are just no words left to say because it's just really the situation more than the people involved.
There is nothing wrong with stopping to talk or even stopping to listen - a time to give yourself space from all the noise around and just really appreciate the beauty in silence. For when the hallways are empty and the world seem still, there is definitely a certain kind of peace.
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