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a sad day.

i was a messenger last tuesday for my mom. she asked me to whisper a message to my tita. and just this afternoon, while i was in the lab for thesis, my mother texted me that tita lita is gone.

it was quite expected, since this has been her third time in the past 3 months to be hospitalized. her third time that transfusion is needed. and of the three times, maybe this was the worst.

***

she has given a lot to others. to her parents, her siblings and to us, her nephews and nieces.

i was able to live with her for three years during high school and i have a lot of things to thank her for. I'm not that sure if she knows how grateful i am that i was able to stay with her during those times.

looking back i would not have chosen any other place to stay for high school apart from hers. no matter how far paranaque may be in manila.

i would never forget the mornings where she would wake up early too since i need to be at school early and she would stay late in pnu since our classes in masci would end late.

she was a guardian and a mentor.

having a tita with PhD in physics, andami kong references nung high school sa physics. hehe. at ngayon nakakahiyang isipin  ung mga nkukuha kong grades nitong college sa physics. na hindi ko man sinabi sa kanya noon, malamang ngayon alam na niya. hehe.

***

for the past years,
consecutive cancer cases has surprised us.

my lola, from my father's side died of the cancer affecting the lymph nodes, 2 years ago.
my tito (mom's brother) died of lung cancer may of last year.
and just today, my tita (mom's sister) died of leukemia.

it's just soo depressing. :(

and what's more depressing is the thought that none of them wanted any of these to happen. that all of them still wanted to survive especially for the people around them. but that their bodies just gave up. :(

saad.

prayers.

***

my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer, three years ago, i think. she is fine and well now after surgery and chemotherapy years ago, and she is taking medicines for maintenance. yet i can't help but be scared :(

hay. more prayers.

***

at least tita will no longer suffer and feel pain,
she'll be with Him once again and be happier.
but we'll surely miss her. :(

Comments

  1. anne, condolences.

    oncogenes. kaya ikaw since alam mong may history kayo ng cancer, iwas sa stress at bad diet ha.

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  2. friend.. *hugs*

    wag mag-isip masyado. okies? :)
    pray!!!!!! :))))

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  3. Ate Anne, my condolences po sa family niyo.

    I hope ok ka lang po.

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  4. Ate Anne, condolences. At least, natapos na ang suffering niya. She'll be another angel to guide you and your family.

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  5. i'm sorry to hear about it. condolences to you and your family.

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  6. friend, i'll pray for you and your family..

    we're just here for you anytime you need us :)

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  7. True. Besides, maybe they'd feel bad if they knew we're sad because of them. Ipokrito ako kung sasabihin kong 'wag kang malulungkot; I just hope you get over this soon. :)

    Live healthy! :D

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  8. Wow, PhD pala tita mo sa physics. Galing.

    Be strong Anne :)

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  9. te anne, i'll assure you of my prayers. =D

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  10. oo nga e. wala man lang ako namana galing sa kanya na love for physics. hehe.

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  11. condolences anne.. my prayers to you and your family.. hugs! :D

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