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starting a new chapter:)

it has been 6 months since i graduated with a bs chemistry degree
it has been 1 month and 18 days since i became single
it has been 1 month and 11 days since i took the chemistry board exam 
it has been 1 month and 8 days since i found out that i passed the chemistry board exam 
it has been 3 days since my first ever job interview 
it has been 3 days since i found out that id be working starting tomorrow. 
it has been 2 days since i took my oath as a chemist
it has been 2 days since i was inducted to be part of the Integrated Chemists of the Philippines
it was just yesterday that i heard fulfilled chemists talk about the career paths that they have chosen, hoping that the things they shared would help us decide on the kind of future that we want. 

a lot of things happened and 
i am still very confused on what i want to do with my life. 

after graduation my main goal was to pass the board exam. 
after passing the board exam my main goal was to find a job.

i thought i'd have a hard time finding a job that i considered a lot of other options:

a) taking a second degree
b) taking medicine
c) being a bum (until i find a job)

and all of them sounded really great that i started planning each possible option. 

i started calling schools for possible second degrees and found out that the applications would start next year. 

i applied for nmat and i'd be taking the exam on dec. 13.

i asked my tita to buy plane tickets for me for my birthday to dumaguete and cebu. 

but then.

tenen. 
i was hired to be part of a research and development team. 
i'm really thankful that out of all the many people who are looking for a job, He gave me one. 

but i still think that everything happened too fast.
yes, i had my share of bum time. 
though not really that bum since i had to review for the board exam
and i had to work part time as a writer to earn for my allowance after the board exam.
(my parents stopped giving me allowance after passing the exam. *tears*)
though it's really fun earning for money for myself.  

ha. my ideas are incoherent. 

actually the only thing keeping me sane since i found out that i'd be working is the fact that He would not give me anything which is not a part of His plans for me.

bottom line: im scaaareeeedddd. but excited. yet really nervous for tomorrow. :|

i was just worrying about my 112.1 special project and my thesis proposal a year ago. 
and now i am forced to start a new life. 

though i know that this new life is something that is good for me after everything that has happened. i still find it sad that this life that i'd be facing soon is a life away from school, from my batch mates and from my now ex boyfriend. i would start living a life away from the things and the people who made my day complete for four years. 

and although research has been my first love in high school.
i am not that positive and confident, that this is what i want in the long run. 

and if i wanted to stay and do research for the rest of my life, i have to study chem some more and that's something which is not part of my options. 

*scream*

im panicking. 

and he's no longer around to assure me that everything would be fine. 

but i should get used to that since he would never really be around me anymore. we are even barely friends. that im positive he wouldn't be reading this.  

that's why im blogging. 

and im saying a lot of things. cause im panicking! sheeez. haha:))

***

bottom of the bottom line:

i am starting a new chapter in my life. and like all the previous chapters, i should do my best in writing this new one. and enjoy it to the fullest. it's okay to be nervous cause that's actually normal. but that should not affect how i'd deal with whatever i have right now. and most importantly, i should not be scared because i should never forget that He is guiding me in all these. :)

okaay.
that's more like my own advise to myself.
laboooo.:))

pero i feel better. :D
talking to him and Him and blogging never fail to make me better. 
and since i cant and wont talk to him 
the latter two made me feel better. 

and i should stop naaa.
stopping:))

Comments

  1. samantha isletaOctober 18, 2009 at 8:36 PM

    likes this post. :)

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  2. anne cruzadoOctober 18, 2009 at 8:54 PM

    hehehe bangag lang:))

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  3. Arman BeeOctober 18, 2009 at 10:25 PM

    awwww.. I like.. :D

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  4. anne cruzadoOctober 18, 2009 at 11:05 PM

    :D :D :D

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  5. kate dadoOctober 18, 2009 at 11:30 PM

    :))

    naiingget ako you had time to write.

    malalaman din natin ang dapat na mangyari. He guides. :)

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  6. nissa garciaOctober 18, 2009 at 11:38 PM

    haha, congrats! who needs a man?! Being single for now is probably the best thing that could happen. Buong college life ko, single ako, and I made strong friendships na di ko magagawa with the burden of being in a relationship..

    tapos nagkaboyfriend ako (yung mas bata kaysa sa kin, haha, yung parang kasing edad nyo) tapos nagbreak kami! tapos nun, nagpaganda ako tapos pumayat ako though ngayon medyo may laman na ulit ako.

    Basta, being single is great. Guys at that age... di pa sila ready. might as well enjoy and bide your time for the real thing.

    congrats sa research and development job! I wish I did that before kasi ngayon grad student ako tapos nagdadalawang isip na ko kung itutuloy ko pa. Pero there are more opportunities to rise. But I can say that with an MS at least, mas malaki ang possibility na makaangat ka. God bless!

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  7. anne cruzadoOctober 18, 2009 at 11:48 PM

    haha:))
    go go go us!:D

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  8. anne cruzadoOctober 18, 2009 at 11:49 PM

    haha:))
    tama mam!:))

    thanks po sa advice. haha.
    pagiisipan ko po talaga:))
    ingat po kayo jan :D

    at goodluck at Godbless sa grad studies:D

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  9. Elyson EncarnacionOctober 19, 2009 at 9:11 AM

    agrees with kate. buti ka pa may time magsulat. although, bum ako di ba? so dapat nakakasulat ako... *laughs* ...pero ang weird... ang busy kong bum! hahaha. *hugs anne* aaw. isn't He just wonderful? He's so great. He guides us. And yet, He still has a bag full of surprises.

    *SHOUTS*: LORD, I'M SO EXCITED FOR YOUR PLANS! SURPRISE ME!

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  10. Ralph GonzalesOctober 19, 2009 at 11:30 AM

    I'm just so happy for you. Everything may seem fast, but it's because you deserve all of them (yes, even being single). In the end, it's all about who you are and what you've done to your life. *hugs*

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  11. anne cruzadoOctober 19, 2009 at 7:20 PM

    haha:))
    adik kang bum!:))
    at tama:D
    we should be always excited for more of His plans!:D

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  12. anne cruzadoOctober 19, 2009 at 7:21 PM

    aww:)
    thanks ralphie:D

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