AnneC.

practically slept the whole day and yet i still feel sleepy. started making our iterinary for zamboanga, and i never realized it would be so expensive. ha. must earn more money.

I woke up hearing a story, of how everything would end. Of trust issues, and lies and secrets getting piled up to destroy something special, something sacred, something we thought was worth fighting for. Why hurt each other when you vowed to love each other eternally? It says that with love comes pain but when do you say that you've suffered enough? When do you draw the line of loving and letting go? Love. Prayer. Hope. That's all left to do when everything starts falling apart. Continue loving cause in love we may find forgiveness, pray cause in Him we'll never be wrong and hope that there will always be a better future ahead.

Lat night was the culminating dinner for RSO week which ended with a blast :) it feels really good being with people you enjoy company with :) Anong oras na? RSOnse na! :) we're one group sharing one promise - service for the underserved. :)

i never really liked microscopy maybe because my eyes make it difficult for me (having only one really normal eye). the only microscopy training that i had in college was during bio11 days, which is among the most basic biology subjects in college. and a little from highschool which i must thank for (since whatever was left from what i have learned then are the only things that i know now, actually). but alas, medschool is giving me a lot of opportunities to hone my none-existent microscopy skills. since first year, we are required to learn histology, a subject about the cells in the human body in a very microscopic way (which i am sure my medtech or public health friends are not having a hard time studying) that i find really difficult :p and today, we were asked to stain and find mycobacterium and i was able to do it in the allotted time, hooray for that :p as for the RSO week, today's event is the palarong pinoy (a series of supposedly Filipino games). another hooray! for i wa...

I'm not sure if i have mentioned but it's my organization's 11th anniversary this week and thus we celebrate it with the RSO week. There has been a series of activities, since tuesday and today we serenaded the male medicine ward. It really makes me happy seeing the people i entrusted my org to are doing such a great job and it feels really good as well, sharing happiness to patients and their families who have almost lost their hope in living even for just a day. :)

today was our first day in our pulmonary module. well i was asleep half the first lecture, but i did well in listening in the afternoon session :) and then there was free time, which i gladly spent updating myself with the latest episodes of the vampire diaries and once upon a time :p which i'd gladly write something about as well sometime :p and another exciting thing today, i had a spur of the moment let's join the quiz bee with my friends! the quiz bee was all about stuff about the Philippines. it didn't went well. but, the experience made me really happy with a lot of learning :p liike.. knowing that the stars in the Philippine Flag symbolizes Luzon, Mindanao and Panay Island and that the capital of Tawi Tawi is no longer Tawi Tawi :o sabi ko nga sa status ko sa facebook -- 'nawindang ang brain cells ko. at nachallenge ang natitirang elementary stock knowledge ko' :)) then a dinner full of plans for the summer vacation which i really really hope to push thro...

people fear about a lot of things. i have a lot of fears, i'm afraid of animals specifically dogs - i squeeze the hand of the person beside me everytime i see one and i get the feeling that i would be bitten or chased by any dog that i see on my way. Aside from dogs, there are frogs and insects like bees, mosquitoes and cockroaches specifically the flying ones. Slowly, i get to face my fears. I can kill cockroaches now, because our dormitory is full of them. although i must say that my heart beats really fast whenever i try to kill one. For those fears that i can't face still, i just stay away from them. sometimes other people have fears that we belittle. For instance, my best friend's scared of frogs and roller coasters. I understand his fear of frogs but I laugh at him about the roller coasters because i love roller coasters. :p i was afraid of cooking. okay, more of i don't like to cook because i don't like the heat, i'm scared that i'd wound myself...

im trying something else. well first of all, Happy Chinese New Year!:) and because i was not able to start writing the 'pages' of my 'online book' on the first day of January, I will make use of the Chinese/Lunar calendar to start this new trend on my blog entries. besides, today is such a special day. because. *drum roll* i already know how to cook! :D and i would like to thank my best friend for that :D :D :D my first product: spaghetti! which means i can now cook for special occasions or if I just feel like eating spaghetti with lots of meat and hotdogs :D and yes, i am very happy about it :) you see, having such a 'sheltered' life, i never really learned how to cook, wash clothes and iron them. I grew up having people around me doing it for me. and my parents always took care of us as well, the only thing that my mother asks me to do is to clean my room or the rooms of the second floor, but apart from that, you can say I am quite spoiled. And even th...

and the initial reaction that comes with misunderstanding is to be annoyed. i've been annoyed for the last three days with one person because i don't understand where she's coming from. I try to put myself in her shoes and only feels more frustrated because i know i wouldn't react the way she did. i have conjured quite a number of assumptions in my head on why she reacted as such and i don't like where my thoughts are leading me and so i just stop.  everyone is different, unique as people would like to call it. and with these differences, is an option between questioning and accepting. I chose to question when it would have been easier to accept. cause sometimes it's just too much.  maybe one of these days i will again try to understand. but for now, i'd be the immature me and rant over it here in my blog.  *sigh* i'm writing less and less. and when i do write, output seems like crap as thoughts are as incoherent as ever. i feel bad. 

I've been trying to rack my brain for the different lessons that I've learned since my blog post last January 4. There was a time when we had a despedida dinner for one of our college classmates who would be leaving for the US for good. I visited my best friend's family. I learned about the different stages of development in children and the different developmental disorders for that matter. and it all got summed up in the title that I used. Growing up. As true as it may seem, when we were younger, we would have wanted to grow as soon as possible. and now that we're all grown up, we just hope time would slow down, for a bit. My god daughter is already 2 years old and 9 months, she'll be turning three this year on April 3. She's such an adorable little thing. Spoiled, yes and at her age right now, you can already play with her or at her which makes me love and miss her more :) on the other end of the spectrum are my college friends who each have their jobs,...

is such a negative expression. it means giving up without even trying, without giving some more. and this is what I feel right now. I don't think I can finish doing this life lessons blog entry. and I am hating myself for it. that i am trying to play my own mind games to make myself realize that I must continue doing this and that I actually really wanted this. It's been almost two weeks since my last entry, and yes, it has been a toxic 10 days. toxic 10 days full of learning but I can't make myself write those life lessons and actually share them. *what is happening with me* </3 but yes yes, i shall try some more.

When you dread tomorrow, think about the day after or the day after the day after. that for me is positive thinking. :p tomorrow's the first day of medical school for the year 2012. Saying hello to coffee, sleepless nights or guilty sleep-full nights, ward works, papers, transes, more transes again. if days does not help in making you want the days to pass by quickly, there's always summer vacation. :p

*New Year's Resolution Series* Not the one you ask from front desks in hotels or from a friend to ensure that you wont be late for appointments or for exams - the kind of wake up call im talking about and something i just had is the kind that wakes you up from an i-thought-it-was-a-never-ending-break :p Yes, school is lurking sooo near. Just almost a day away. And i very much needed that wake up call - needed but not wanted:p Who ever wants to wake up from such a stress-free life anyway? :p only sleeping beauty :p Anyway, maybe i need not much rely on wake up calls; cause what if one day i only have myself, just me to tell myself that i have to get going and do my responsibilities; what if i failed to see the wake up call? Well then i would not be up for anything nice. Thus, i better set my own alarm clock and have the initiative to do better always, with or without wake up calls apart from myself. Then maybe i can be the wake up call for others as well. inspiring, dont you...