I need to rant and I am giving myself 10 minutes to finish this blog to rant my heart out about one person who will definitely make my entire ICC really tough.
Dear you,
You are the primary proof that medical students can be very irresponsible. and it's sad. Yes, not all medical students are responsible, but not like you. You do not know your priorities, and yes i am judging you by the way you work, the way you present yourself and the way you show up in class, small group discussions and what-not. And i don't think I have judged you wrongly.
We have been group mates since first year medical school, blame our surnames, and I never liked you. I never liked you at all.You brag a lot but you have nothing to boast, apart from your talents, which if I may add has nothing to do with medschool.
You entered medical school because you wanted to be a doctor, are you sure? Because it sure as hell you have not given much that will make you deserving of such title (so far atleast) and you only have three years left so you can prove that you are indeed deserving of the two letters after your surname. Yes, your surname, for me is special and you gave me a reason to dislike it.
Maybe what you do in medical school will not reflect of how you will be when you become a fully pledged practitioner. I do hope that that would be the case for you.
When I found out that ICC would mostly be by groups of four (such a small number from the groups of 16 and 20 from LU3 and LU4) and some would be even done by pairs. I already prepared myself of dividing workload into just three and the pair work be done individually. and I was right not to expect. how can any responsible student not read anything on the day before the case presentation? It's a sad sad life.
Because of you, I fear this supposedly benign year. I know that somewhere along the way, I would break down (like i did a few minutes ago, and you can't blame me because I'm scared.) I have just started to put a little more stable grounding on my feet. From my feat last LU3 and a little better performance last year, I dont think I can face such great challenge ahead already. And unfortunately for me, I got you as a partner. so much for facing challenges with someone. how unlucky indeed.
but you, you are lucky (and no, not for having me as your partner, i think you are lucky enough to be paired to anyone). you are lucky, you are very blessed. Most of us have gone the hard way and we are still doing a hell of a job to prove that we are indeed deserving. and you.. (insert sigh) i do hope you also realize how lucky you are and put that luck in a better light, prove to yourself that you are deserving of this spot.
Contrary to what my initial instinct is, I don't pray for you to be kicked out or for you to drop and be delayed (although I thought about that, a lot of times even), praying for that would make me as evil as you are irresponsible.So instead I pray that you be enlightened, of your priorities in your life right now. And change for the better, really change for the better. It would be difficult for the people around you to trust you and actually find you reliable, considering the fact that you have been like that for two years (counting to three). It would be a long long journey but I do hope you be enlightened to change more for yourself than for others (although life would be easier for the other people if you do change). Change for your future patients, because if I am a patient and you are a doctor and I know the kind of medical student you are right now, I surely won't go to your clinic.
They say medschool is different from lawschool, in a sense that in here we work together and it is encouraged to work together. But how can you work together, how can you help one another when one person is not willing to help himself? I guess I am not the right person to help you and I don't want to help you either, unless of course you start helping yourself. They also say we should not speak wrongly of future colleagues, and for that I am sorry for this blog. but right now, i don't look at you as one. because in my perception you're not worthy to be one.
keeping my hopes up, but not expecting,
anne
--oOo--
and now a letter to myself.
dear me,
you can do this. think of the learning and this being a blessing for you to become the great doctor that you want to be. sooner or later, everything will be done individually and by that time it would be his loss, and all will be fair. never give up.
cheering for myself,
anne
Dear you,
You are the primary proof that medical students can be very irresponsible. and it's sad. Yes, not all medical students are responsible, but not like you. You do not know your priorities, and yes i am judging you by the way you work, the way you present yourself and the way you show up in class, small group discussions and what-not. And i don't think I have judged you wrongly.
We have been group mates since first year medical school, blame our surnames, and I never liked you. I never liked you at all.You brag a lot but you have nothing to boast, apart from your talents, which if I may add has nothing to do with medschool.
You entered medical school because you wanted to be a doctor, are you sure? Because it sure as hell you have not given much that will make you deserving of such title (so far atleast) and you only have three years left so you can prove that you are indeed deserving of the two letters after your surname. Yes, your surname, for me is special and you gave me a reason to dislike it.
Maybe what you do in medical school will not reflect of how you will be when you become a fully pledged practitioner. I do hope that that would be the case for you.
When I found out that ICC would mostly be by groups of four (such a small number from the groups of 16 and 20 from LU3 and LU4) and some would be even done by pairs. I already prepared myself of dividing workload into just three and the pair work be done individually. and I was right not to expect. how can any responsible student not read anything on the day before the case presentation? It's a sad sad life.
Because of you, I fear this supposedly benign year. I know that somewhere along the way, I would break down (like i did a few minutes ago, and you can't blame me because I'm scared.) I have just started to put a little more stable grounding on my feet. From my feat last LU3 and a little better performance last year, I dont think I can face such great challenge ahead already. And unfortunately for me, I got you as a partner. so much for facing challenges with someone. how unlucky indeed.
but you, you are lucky (and no, not for having me as your partner, i think you are lucky enough to be paired to anyone). you are lucky, you are very blessed. Most of us have gone the hard way and we are still doing a hell of a job to prove that we are indeed deserving. and you.. (insert sigh) i do hope you also realize how lucky you are and put that luck in a better light, prove to yourself that you are deserving of this spot.
Contrary to what my initial instinct is, I don't pray for you to be kicked out or for you to drop and be delayed (although I thought about that, a lot of times even), praying for that would make me as evil as you are irresponsible.So instead I pray that you be enlightened, of your priorities in your life right now. And change for the better, really change for the better. It would be difficult for the people around you to trust you and actually find you reliable, considering the fact that you have been like that for two years (counting to three). It would be a long long journey but I do hope you be enlightened to change more for yourself than for others (although life would be easier for the other people if you do change). Change for your future patients, because if I am a patient and you are a doctor and I know the kind of medical student you are right now, I surely won't go to your clinic.
They say medschool is different from lawschool, in a sense that in here we work together and it is encouraged to work together. But how can you work together, how can you help one another when one person is not willing to help himself? I guess I am not the right person to help you and I don't want to help you either, unless of course you start helping yourself. They also say we should not speak wrongly of future colleagues, and for that I am sorry for this blog. but right now, i don't look at you as one. because in my perception you're not worthy to be one.
keeping my hopes up, but not expecting,
anne
--oOo--
and now a letter to myself.
dear me,
you can do this. think of the learning and this being a blessing for you to become the great doctor that you want to be. sooner or later, everything will be done individually and by that time it would be his loss, and all will be fair. never give up.
cheering for myself,
anne
You can do it! Upakan na yang groupmate!
ReplyDeleteHaha thank you :) pero di ko siya kaya hahaha although sana magbago pa sya haha. For his own good :)
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