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Almost There But Not Quite Yet

Being a doctor entails a lot. It entails a lot of time and energy, a lot of heart and strength. It entails a lot of understanding, and generally a lot of oneself. This is one thing that I have seen and experienced again and again especially at this very crucial moment of my career.

I am almost up to the end of my pre-residency period. Pre-residency is part of the application process to become a resident - a medical doctor in training for a subspecialty of choice. It's like a period where in you as an applicant are "testing the waters" and where they test your resiliency and capacity to do the tasks at hand.

Adapting to the new environment is a challenge knowing where I came from. To say that it was difficult is an understatement. Having to wear a skirt everyday is something I was not used to and one of the many new things I have to do. And although the boyfriend is happy to see me dressed up whenever we see each other, being in jeans and rubber shoes still give me that undeniable comfort, skirts and flats can never give, haha.

Being in a new system taught me a lot of things.

And now I see a glimpse of what my interviewer meant when he said, 'If you hear something you don't like, let it go. If you don't have something nice to say, learn to not talk.'

On days like these, He never fails to remind me that I am greatly favored. In today's Homily, I was reminded that I should feel blessed to be at the bottom. Because at the bottom I am with Him. At the bottom I am able to serve. In here, I can see what's on top, what can be made better and I can pray for change. I can pray that when the tides have turned, I would still have the same heart for service, the same heart for hoping for the better.

Almost up to the end and I'm glad to say that I think I have found a happy place - quirks and all. The past month can be compared to a period of coming from a break-up and meeting someone new.There's the kilig, pure amazement and light feeling that come with new relationships, At first I was scared that this happiness would just be at the beginning, that when I started to see the negative I would lose heart. But then like in any other relationship, staying in love, is always a choice. And I think that I have found enough reasons to fight for this and to stay (if I get accepted).

Always praying for His will and His plan in His right time.

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