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That Warm Fuzzy Feeling

Waking up on a rainy morning makes me think about a lot of things. A lot of things to take in and sometimes, everything becomes a blur that I need to pause, reflect on things. And what better way to spend my me time than to write my thoughts.

Past weeks have been all about new things - new people, new environment, making new memories. And the gloomy weather somehow makes me remember and miss the old.

Sabi nga ni basha, "Anong masama sa bago?"

The new is interesting, exciting and fun. But there are times when, in my trying to adapt to the new, i eventually use up all my happy energy (and being a more than less introvert person, my stock of happy energy is relatively limited). And probably the past week of learning new things, engraving in your brain and trying to imbibe a new culture left me tired and thinking of the old. 

Change in environment and in the culture is good. We learn new things and we become better. And that has always been one of my reasons for seeking new paths. And I am happy with my choices and I wouldnt have it any other way. :)

There are probably just days like today when I miss old people - the highschool bestfriend, the best college buddies, and best medical school friends - who i hope are all dry and enjoying the Holiday season; when I miss home where we usually spend our Christmas - where I pray for the families who suffered a lot from the last typhoon; when I look back at memories and let out a sigh - saying "I miss those days."- but smiling again ready to make new memories for the days to come.

It's like Christmas without the warm fuzzy feeling. 
It's not bad. Not entirely sad. It's just different. :)

Eventually, that warm fuzzy feeling will come back, no matter what because it's Christmas, and the only reason for the celebration will always be around :)


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