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By His Grace



The past few months have been for a lack of a better word, challenging, as a new internist and as a daughter.

My father got sick that basically we were always in the hospital for follow up check ups, admissions and procedures of sorts. (He is well and okay now on the road to full recovery, thank you everyone for your prayers 🙏) All these happening while reviewing for the diplomate exam and applying for fellowship.

The past few months have challenged me as a daughter - you see, I was never the malambing and sweet daddy's girl. I was raised to be independent and strong, and that favor is being given when you are among the best. That I guess I lacked the charisma and pleasantness that my not so little brother has. I dont like stubborn people and well my dad is a quite hardheaded patient (the genes on wanting things done our way is probably strong in our blood 😅) lalo doktor pa. He always wanted a little bit of lambing and that has always been an issue whenever I talk to them before. That it was not easy to help him and help the family go through everything we've been through.

The past few months have also challenged me as a daughter of God. There were days of crying for  fear of what is to happen. There were nights full of anxiety, I have to sing songs of faith to calm myself albeit still with tears. There were moments when I spiral away to unending deep thoughts of doubt.

In those scary moments, I learned to talk and to listen to Him again. I was okay when it came to my faith - attending mass whenever I can, never stopped praying, and always believing. But those past few months were different. The challenges made my faith stronger and my love for my family grew as we grew closer to Him again. (Kulang pa rin sa lambing though 😂)

By focusing on Him, I felt His unending Grace. I felt His unconditional love. The fears, tears and the doubts disappeared because I have seen how He is always in control and how He has planned everything for me and my family in His perfect time.
Once again, I have nothing but words of praise for His Name. Super galing Niya talaga.

My family is okay. My dad is healing. I am  engaged for about a month now and set to marry my bestfriend in 2 years time. I passed the diplomate exam for internal medicine and got accepted in the Nephrology Fellowship training program in Makati Medical Center.

I am humbled. I am blessed. I am grateful. I am excited for His plans for me.

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