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Quiet Hands

Saying hello to the rest of the world.
Been writing a lot these past few days mostly scientific things hence craving for some form of expression in a creative possibly ranting way. You see, I ordered colorful pens online (asked the fiance (because PSJ is my boyfriend. haha. bawal kontra.)) to buy me flourescent and colored gel pens online (because I haven't allowed myself to buy anything online, yet). But they haven't arrived, and so I resort to my next best form of catharsis - writing.

Going into three months in our new normal - haven't been home a lot (leaving my extrovert brother at home hoping he does not go insane living alone - buti na lang meron syang kadaily video call. hihi) since there is still no easy way to go home and staying near the hospital is a lot more convenient; seeing the parents through video calls only (at least easing my anxiety that I might pass on this unseen virus to them); seeing my constant source of happiness only about once or twice since the lockdown started (e bawal na din daw magPDA haha affected); deliveries as an act of love and care; wearing scrubsuits everyday at the hospital (no longer indicative of duty status, hindi na lang hair haha pati damit); webinars left and right, unlimited online meetings and zoom conferences.

A lot seem to change but in a small portion of my brain I see how the world pre and during COVID has been almost the same like how my facebook feed has been almost the same pre and post my facebook hiatus. It has been mostly about people having something, sometimes anything to say, and people mostly seeing what's wrong in our thriving world. Most of the time, the things I read just leave my heart heavy, that I just stop reading and even stopped listening to the news; Some might even call it being passive (well aside from the fact that I am good at being passive-aggresive, i kid. or not.), sometimes the world needs its fair share of quiet workers.

Quiet workers with eyes always looking for the good, ears ready to listen, hands which continue to work for an uncertain future, feet that move one step at a time day by day hoping for the better and a heart which does not forget the things that matters most.

And yes, I plan to continue keeping my peace while (watching K-dramas (but not as much as I want to, because, back to training haha) working on my own little corner - taking care of patients while praying for the rest of the world.

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