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Life Lesson #49: Fears

people fear about a lot of things. i have a lot of fears, i'm afraid of animals specifically dogs - i squeeze the hand of the person beside me everytime i see one and i get the feeling that i would be bitten or chased by any dog that i see on my way. Aside from dogs, there are frogs and insects like bees, mosquitoes and cockroaches specifically the flying ones.

Slowly, i get to face my fears. I can kill cockroaches now, because our dormitory is full of them. although i must say that my heart beats really fast whenever i try to kill one. For those fears that i can't face still, i just stay away from them.

sometimes other people have fears that we belittle. For instance, my best friend's scared of frogs and roller coasters. I understand his fear of frogs but I laugh at him about the roller coasters because i love roller coasters. :p

i was afraid of cooking. okay, more of i don't like to cook because i don't like the heat, i'm scared that i'd wound myself from using the knife or that i'd be burned by the hot cooking oil. and then as mentioned in my previous entry, a situation came up where if luck would not be on my side, i would need to face that fear. then i started helping myself overcome that fear and that help started today. :p

i guess, it's really just a matter of how to look at things.  i was scared of something, that i am starting to desensitize myself from that fear by exposing myself slowly. and it actually felt good, cooking. i enjoyed it, and would love to try it again soon. :)

that's one thing off my list :p the frogs and dogs and other insects can wait. maybe next year :p

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