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Life Lesson #40: Why notice everything?

And here i thought i would have a happy and nice next blog entry. I thought blogging made the grinch stop stealing my Christmas, unfortunately today didnt end without me having bad vibes.

You see i live in a town where everyone notices everything. Or maybe in this alternate life, i am just so interesting that people think they know me, who i am, how i have been. etc etc just because they know my father or mother or i dont know who and how they are related with me.

this is a craziness i haven't really had a good grasp on and something i so tried very hard to understand. But my patience has been pretty much tested, and at the end of the day, it all boils down to me getting annoyed by the very fact that people notice everything about other people.

'you got fat', 'you have pimples', 'what happened?'

'Well, why dont you look at yourself in the mirror?', 'medical school happened but im happy', 'why do you have to notice everything? I dont even put much thought into it myself, why should you?'

If only in this alternate life i am such a b*tch that i can say this upfront to people who have been getting to my nerves. If i am only tactless enough to tell this to people to leave me and my life alone, then maybe i wouldnt be blogging about it.

But i cant, because i have to be near perfect, and because if i tried to say all this out loud, more things would be said, not only about how i am physically but maybe even about how i am as a person, sad dont you think?

this is such a ranting blog entry, but i have to get this out of my system. *sigh*

I guess the main lesson in life for the day is not about saying what's really in your heart, especially if more harm will be done in doing so and because i dont even have the ability to do it (so maybe next time) but this is a reminder to everyone, even me that before noticing others, look at yourself very well first; weigh if what you have to say matters or just a waste of words; know your place well in the person's life (are you even close? Do you really know anything about them?) before saying anything, anything at all. And finally, just try to mind your own business; mind your own life.

Now tomorrow, im really hoping for a happy entry because tomorrow is really a special day.:)

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